Preparing for Reentry

By the Sea

Yesterday morning I drove the scenic route to Morro Bay and reflected on life, death, and my time on sabbatical.  In less than a week I’ll be “back in the office” and will return to my role as the Minister-at-Large with Jews for Jesus.  Has it really been three months since I met with David and told him I needed a break?  Has it really been six months since Sean died?  I still can’t fully wrap my mind around it all… Maybe I never will.

My family got through our first Christmas without Sean.  It was hard.  It was painful.  A year ago I thought we’d be celebrating Sean’s remission during Christmas 2014, but instead I found myself grieving the infinite difference between our past hopes and our current reality.  Death sucks.

I don’t cry about Sean’s death anymore, and I don’t feel the overwhelming anxiety very often- the anxiety that takes my [Continue reading]